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I also thought he would be disappointed/ upset with me for sleeping in late during a course. It was a very strange procession, but fortunately they met no one.
So does regular intake of antacids and laxatives
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January 30, 2014
Purge your Heart to the Lord
Wish You Were Here
I just received a postcard, from a very dear friend,
Who lives far far away, but one whom I depend.
I knew I was thought of, as the words were sincere,
Beginning with... "Dear Joni, I wish you were here..."
I smiled with joy, as someone was thinking of me,
In a way that they were wishing, with them I could be.
I was a bit confused, as I had sent the same note,
Awaiting a response, to what I had I wrote.
As I looked at the postcard, I couldn't believe my eyes,
This special someone, was finally answering my cry.
I took a deep breath, as I didn't know what to think
As I began to read the words, that were written in gold ink...
"I received your postcard, and your message was clear...
That you wish I was with you, as you wrote,
"Wish you were here".
I have three words to tell you, and please take them to heart,
"I AM Here" my child, as I have been, right from the start.
You don't have to wish anymore,
because I'm right by your side,
Through this journey called life, I'm along for the ride.
In good times and bad, you can count on me,
Living inside of you, is where I will always be.
So Joni, I Wish you were Here....believing in my name,
Trusting in me, you will never be the same.
Thanks for your postcard, I'm returning it back to you,
Love God, and PS... I truly love you too."
I got the message, loud and clear...
That God never left me, as He is right "here".
"Here" in the moment, "Here" in my day
"Here" even when things, aren't going my way.
He's my Father in Heaven,
and my Father "Here" on this earth,
He's always been with me, since the day of my birth.
The postcards I send Him now,
are filled with my thanks & a prayer,
Because I am certain, that He is Here...as He is Everywhere.
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May you be filled with peace, knowing that the Lord is with you...no matter where you may be,
no matter what you may be feeling,
no matter your circumstances.
January 24, 2014
Week 2: Trusting in the One Who Heals
The freeing truth of Isaiah 40:30-31...“Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”
The Truth: the young, the middle aged, the old.. all grow tired and weary
The Truth: the young, the middle aged, the old...all stumble and fall
The Lie: putting one's hope in food, appearance, size, number on the scale, perfectionism...will not renew your strength. You will run away and grow weary, crawl and faint.
BUT THE TRUTH: those who HOPE in the LORD WILL...
1. Renew their strength
2. Soar on wings like eagles
3. Be long distance runners
4. Have stamina
5. Walk unashamed
6. Fly Free
Taking the step to hope in something better than what you may be placing your hope in now can be a hard step. In Week 1 we learned the truth that we are not doing this alone, as we have the Lord as our constant companion that is taking this journey with us. This Week we are learning to place our hope, our trust in the One who Heals.
How do you follow someone who don't trust? It is easy to say the words, "trust God", but saying and actually trusting Him are totally different things, as I know firsthand. I had to, and still continue to, to go to God with everything that is on my heart...the good, the bad, the ugly, as He knows it anyway. To sit at His feet and purge out my heart to Him is what deepens my trust because He never leaves me no matter what I may say or feel. His grace and unconditional love is what I had to experience first before I could face the journey of letting go of my food stronghold.
Do you trust God? A general question yet there are so many layers to trust.
Do you trust Him for your salvation?
Do you trust Him with your finances?
Do you trust Him with your food stronghold?
Do you trust Him enough to make you enough so food no longer has to fill you enough?
This week get to know your Lord in the most intimate way by daily sitting at His feet and having a one on one with Him. He won't ever let you down, as He is the best listener. Get to know Him at a deeper level then you have every known Him before. He will meet you right where you are at.
Do you trust Him enough to begin to let go of what is really eating you?
Strap those wings on and begin to use them even if you feel you aren't ready to fly, and I promise you that they will begin to flap as you hope in Him.
The Truth: the young, the middle aged, the old.. all grow tired and weary
The Truth: the young, the middle aged, the old...all stumble and fall
The Lie: putting one's hope in food, appearance, size, number on the scale, perfectionism...will not renew your strength. You will run away and grow weary, crawl and faint.
BUT THE TRUTH: those who HOPE in the LORD WILL...
1. Renew their strength
2. Soar on wings like eagles
3. Be long distance runners
4. Have stamina
5. Walk unashamed
6. Fly Free
Taking the step to hope in something better than what you may be placing your hope in now can be a hard step. In Week 1 we learned the truth that we are not doing this alone, as we have the Lord as our constant companion that is taking this journey with us. This Week we are learning to place our hope, our trust in the One who Heals.
How do you follow someone who don't trust? It is easy to say the words, "trust God", but saying and actually trusting Him are totally different things, as I know firsthand. I had to, and still continue to, to go to God with everything that is on my heart...the good, the bad, the ugly, as He knows it anyway. To sit at His feet and purge out my heart to Him is what deepens my trust because He never leaves me no matter what I may say or feel. His grace and unconditional love is what I had to experience first before I could face the journey of letting go of my food stronghold.
Do you trust God? A general question yet there are so many layers to trust.
Do you trust Him for your salvation?
Do you trust Him with your finances?
Do you trust Him with your food stronghold?
Do you trust Him enough to make you enough so food no longer has to fill you enough?
This week get to know your Lord in the most intimate way by daily sitting at His feet and having a one on one with Him. He won't ever let you down, as He is the best listener. Get to know Him at a deeper level then you have every known Him before. He will meet you right where you are at.
Do you trust Him enough to begin to let go of what is really eating you?
Strap those wings on and begin to use them even if you feel you aren't ready to fly, and I promise you that they will begin to flap as you hope in Him.
January 22, 2014
Week One: You are not Alone!
The
book of Joshua begins with God commissioning Joshua as Moses’ successor. FEAR
enters in as now they are to enter the promised land, unknown territory, without their leader. But then God COMMANDS them to
not be afraid, to not be terrifed, to not be discouraged.
Fear...is
one of the bricks that makes up this brick wall, as it is one of the triggers
that makes you want to run and hide.
Fear
of being judged, criticized, being ugly, not good enough, not thin enough,
never losing the weight, never having a healthy relationship with food or with
others, fear of being just you...and the list goes on.
Look
at the mirror on the wall.
What
are you first thoughts when you think of a mirror?
The
mirror creates a reflection of you...the outside shell of you.
How we
avoid the mirror or use it to decorate ourselves so we appear to look better
and to feel better than we really are.
Going
to the outside to make the inside feel better. Trying to decorate the
lies you have believed about yourself for so long, so they will go away. But
decorating them has no power, to change the heart.
The
BRICK WALL: what does this
represent to you?
It is
solid. Firm. Unbreakable. Made up of bricks.
A
fortress erected to protect. To not let anything in or anything out.
This
wall represents a stronghold. Food built this wall. Poor body image built this
wall. Whatever it may be, it is there. But then there is a mirror on the wall.
A mirror for us to look in, a mirror that goes right to the heart. The fear of
seeing the you that you try to hide. The fear of seeing your broken heart. The
fear of facing the lies you were told that made you feel so unlovable.
BUT
there is only one way to face the fear...to look into the mirror and the answer
is in reading the handwriting on the wall.
What
happens when you are weak, terrified, cowardly...do you run to food to give you
courage, strength, encouragement...or do you run to your Father who is with you
and who promises to give you all that you need in that moment?
When
God is with you, you are able to walk with grace to the mirror of your heart. The fears are real, as they are what you are feeling. Allow the fears to open up your heart to why they are there. As you walk with Him, the bricks that make up your wall begin to tumble down,
as God becomes your stronghold, your refuge, your protection.
As you
begin to face your fears that may be in the way of your facing the food
stronghold that is in your life, rest assure that you are not alone. You have
someone who is willing to walk with you as He gets to the heart that is eating
you with His tender love. Brick by brick they will come tumbling down, as you
begin to surrender your all to Him.
So
take the hand of the One who will be with you wherever you go...and believe that He will provide the courage and the encouragement you need along the way.
The Journey Begins
Today is a new day, a new beginning if you are ready to participate in the Weightless Flying Free Bible Study. As you sit with God through this journey, I promise you that your heart will be changed, as He "gets to the heart that is eating you". Please feel free to comment as we go through this study. I would love to hear your insights as God reveals them to. This is your journey, so enjoy the ride as God takes you to new heights.
How would you define freedom, becoming Weightless and Flying free?
Food restricted me, as it imprisoned me, even though I was the one who was controlling it. I locked myself in a prison only because I believed there was no other option. Feeling hopeless, helpless, and afraid left me feeling hopeless, helpless and afraid, but food always gave me a choice to do something and to feel something beside myself. Why was I running to something that would always make me feel more hopeless, helpless and afraid...restricted? How do I fly when my wings were so heavy laden?
I finally found a new “hope” in a pit of despair. As I was so low that I had to look up...to the One where true freedom is found. Freedom...hope in someone bigger than me, myself and I.
YOU ARE ALLOWED TO BE FREE?
Take that to your heart. Do you believe freedom is for you? Do you fear freedom?Free to be yourself...the YOU God made you to be.
Free to feel...no matter how deep the pain, because Jesus is right there with you.
Free to live as a beautiful daughter of the King....No matter what the number on the scale is, no matter how many wrinkles, no matter how you may feel about yourself when you look in the mirror...free to live beautiful...just as you are, just because God says so.
Read the words of John 8:31-32..
To the Jews who had believed him, JESUS said, "If you HOLD to my teaching,you are really my DISCIPLES. Then you will know the TRUTH,
and the TRUTH will set you free."
The word HOLD means to be present. It is usually when we don’t want to be present when we run to our strongholds, as I ran straight to food as soon as I became present because it was “me” that I was feeling.
A DISCIPLE is a pupil a learner...one who is sitting at his/her teacher’s feet. I would sit at food’s feet as I was a disciple of food, and a very good one.
The TRUTH is that we are “slaves to the ways of the world”, and need Jesus, someone bigger than ourselves, as isn’t “ourselves” the ones who we are running from?
JESUS frees us by making us sons and daughters.
Truth only can set the mind free from its bondage under ignorance and
prejudice and evil habit. If the Light of the world shines into the
dark places of the heart, the chains that are misunderstood will not
only become visible, but will be broken.
(http://biblehub.com/commentaries/john/8-31.htm)
So if Jesus sets you free, you are free indeed!
Sounds too easy to be true, but it is.The first step is to make this truth part of your life.
You are free right now, even if you don’t feel, or look free right now.
Freedom, based on what the world’s mirror, only reflects back to you that “you are not good enough and that you can be better”. Freedom isn’t based on appearance, a number on the scale, or fitting into your jeans without having to do squats to make them fit. Freedom is based on the One who has given us wings to fly above the world’s mirror of perfection because perfection can only be found in the Perfect One. The One who came to remove whatever has kept us from flying.
So start flying today...even afraid...because you are free.
As you begin this process of “getting to the heart of what is eating you”, take the first step by living free. Free, not according to the world’s standards but to who your Creator has made you to be.Let’s start flying together, right this moment, believing and receiving the truth that you are free right now. Start living as if you are free...no matter what you may feel or weigh or look like.
Just try it...you will be amazed how light you will start to feel knowing that you can fly free through this process.
The song “I’m Gonna Fly” by Amy Grant describes what Weightless Flying Free means to me, and the freedom that my wings have enabled me to do.
"I'm Gonna Fly"
All of my friends are happy to stay
Here in this yard day after day
But something inside me has called me away
I don't understand but I know I can't stay
I'm gonna fly
No one knows where
But I'm gonna fly
I'm lighter than air
Cause I have felt for the first time
I can be myself
No more faces to hide behind
Just a smile and a dream that's mine
Even if I am the only one who wants to fly
I'm gonna fly
No one knows where
But I'm gonna fly
I'll soar thru the air
All of my life seems I've waited
For the time to start
Being the person inside of me
Unafraid of being me
No more faces to hide behind
Just a smile and a dream that's mine
Even if I am the only one who wants to fly
If I had my life to live over again
I'd run barefoot, relax a bit more
And I'd talk to my children
And I'd learn how they laugh
And I'd teach them how I've learned to fly
Cause all my life seems I've waited
For the time to start
Being this person inside of me
Unafraid of being me
Even if I am the only one who wants to fly
I'm gonna fly
Start flapping those wings because that is why they are there...so you can soar above all that has been weighing you down.
May 11, 2011
The "Hungry" Heart
http://youtu.be/UWSfyEw96T0
As soon as I started watching this video, it brought me back to those lonely times I was in the bathroom after a binge. The background of this video is on a stairwell, yet to me it has the hollowness of a bathroom. The song title, "Hungry", is so appropriate, as my heart was so hungry for affection, for love, that I chose food to fill it. Why wouldn't a starving heart crave food?
The expression on the face of the girl singing in the front, brought me back to those times I felt so lonely...right before I would purge. Contemplating my choice...do I or don't I? My inside screaming "do it"...yet my true desire was for someone to save me at that moment so I wouldn't do it.
This song....the lyrics...just waiting for Jesus to come, to rescue...to fill up my empty soul.
It is in the waiting...in the silence...in the calm before the storm...at that moment of choice...is when fear trickles in. So alone....so wanting to wait for Jesus to come and fill up your soul...yet becoming impatient....the choice in the calm....in the waiting.
This song...this video so speaks to my heart. As I see that fearful, lonely Joni...so filled up with emotions and food...so wanting to be free...yet not knowing what to do....so that Joni would do what she only knew to do to satisfy that heart hunger...she would choose to purge out all of Joni...to make her go away.
I know this may sound so depressing....but for some reason, this video made me look back on those lonely days...those lonely years....that I was in such deep pain....denying myself of feeling, by numbing myself with food...and then becoming so "full" that I would have to run away from myself...because after a binge I could feel myself...the one thing that I didn't want to feel...me....
This song....with the guitar player in the background, reminding me of Jesus' small whisper, calling out behind me...as He was holding out His arms to me...telling me to "Come"...to "Come to Me" so He could satisfy my hungry soul.
I came....and my life has never been the same. He rescued me from that fearful little Joni, the Joni that was afraid of her shadow, afraid to feel.
Jesus rescued that Joni, and "peaced" her back together.
Hungry I came...Empty I felt...Broken I was....
I fell on my knees, as I was so weary so that was the only place to go...Offering all of me to Jesus. He touched my heart, in those broken places where food didn't have the power to fill....satisfying my heart hunger.
Thank you Jesus for saving me from broken self.
Wait for Him...in the pain...in the loneliness...in the fear....Wait because He is right there just waiting to satisfy your heart. He is singing your name, calling you to Come to Him.
Hungry....
Hungry, I come to you
For I know You satisfy
I am empty, but I know
Your love does not run dry
So I wait for you
So I wait for You
I’m falling on my knees
Offering all of me
Jesus, You’re all this heart is living for
Broken, I run to You
For Your arms are open wide
I am weary, but I know
Your touch restores my life
So I wait for you
So I wait for You
I’m falling on my knees
Offering all of me
Jesus, You’re all this heart is living for
As soon as I started watching this video, it brought me back to those lonely times I was in the bathroom after a binge. The background of this video is on a stairwell, yet to me it has the hollowness of a bathroom. The song title, "Hungry", is so appropriate, as my heart was so hungry for affection, for love, that I chose food to fill it. Why wouldn't a starving heart crave food?
The expression on the face of the girl singing in the front, brought me back to those times I felt so lonely...right before I would purge. Contemplating my choice...do I or don't I? My inside screaming "do it"...yet my true desire was for someone to save me at that moment so I wouldn't do it.
This song....the lyrics...just waiting for Jesus to come, to rescue...to fill up my empty soul.
It is in the waiting...in the silence...in the calm before the storm...at that moment of choice...is when fear trickles in. So alone....so wanting to wait for Jesus to come and fill up your soul...yet becoming impatient....the choice in the calm....in the waiting.
This song...this video so speaks to my heart. As I see that fearful, lonely Joni...so filled up with emotions and food...so wanting to be free...yet not knowing what to do....so that Joni would do what she only knew to do to satisfy that heart hunger...she would choose to purge out all of Joni...to make her go away.
I know this may sound so depressing....but for some reason, this video made me look back on those lonely days...those lonely years....that I was in such deep pain....denying myself of feeling, by numbing myself with food...and then becoming so "full" that I would have to run away from myself...because after a binge I could feel myself...the one thing that I didn't want to feel...me....
This song....with the guitar player in the background, reminding me of Jesus' small whisper, calling out behind me...as He was holding out His arms to me...telling me to "Come"...to "Come to Me" so He could satisfy my hungry soul.
I came....and my life has never been the same. He rescued me from that fearful little Joni, the Joni that was afraid of her shadow, afraid to feel.
Jesus rescued that Joni, and "peaced" her back together.
Hungry I came...Empty I felt...Broken I was....
I fell on my knees, as I was so weary so that was the only place to go...Offering all of me to Jesus. He touched my heart, in those broken places where food didn't have the power to fill....satisfying my heart hunger.
Thank you Jesus for saving me from broken self.
Wait for Him...in the pain...in the loneliness...in the fear....Wait because He is right there just waiting to satisfy your heart. He is singing your name, calling you to Come to Him.
Hungry....
Hungry, I come to you
For I know You satisfy
I am empty, but I know
Your love does not run dry
So I wait for you
So I wait for You
I’m falling on my knees
Offering all of me
Jesus, You’re all this heart is living for
Broken, I run to You
For Your arms are open wide
I am weary, but I know
Your touch restores my life
So I wait for you
So I wait for You
I’m falling on my knees
Offering all of me
Jesus, You’re all this heart is living for
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